Sometimes I just thought ...why let those things happen to me ... I think I just I don't like anybody else smart..I want to cry.. But no tears in my eyes.. I want to die.. But no courage to make that happen.And I scared of hurt and blood..Most important..I got some wish to finish..
I don't want my parents get hurt.. so I just take all of it .. Just no need to tell my stupid things.
I know I put too much pressure on myself lately..Mybe I`ll get sick..fortunately.I got few frends to help me ..
I just need write something to release my pressure to make myself not get to crazy.. I know this language I'm not get it well..But I practice anytime when I got free.. I know it didn't work..My English still a mess right now..In my past three and half years.. I lost so many time and chance to change my life..Maybe my whole life is always regret my every single decision. I don't know what happen to me ..Why I just can't make more smart when I got somethings bad happen to me..After that..Is pain regret afraid..too many motions make my life is mess..
I just don't want to do anything .. don't want to talking ..saying ..smiling and eating.Just like a doll sit there..
And nobody can help me ..I already did so many things wrong ..And they are forgive me too many times..I know they loved me..But I just can't say it anymore..my relationship will be going to hell..
要么。。娶个老公改名叫Luky吧。。。
